I couldn't write my answer yesterday. I DIDN'T have an answer. I developed a cold which was really dragging me down. I have fibro, so anything, like a cold, makes it alot worse than with other people.
When I got home from work, I took a nice hot Epson Salt bath with Lavender and Eucalyptus. I added Dr. Teal's Foaming Bath which also contains essential oils and Epson Salts. I like bubbles!
Usually, I set a timer to soak for 30 minutes and I read a book. I didn't have the energy to do that last night. So, I sat and did nothing.
During my soak, my mind thinks many thoughts and shakes them down.....to what is really on my mind. Good gosh, I was so tired. I hate feeling so tired. I hate my soul feeling a slave to what the fibro will do on a daily basis. Most of all, I hate hating.
In my bath, I was mentally moaning about my feelings: I hate hating. "Stop feeling sorry for yourself!", my inner voice yelled. I thought, "How could I say that gently to myself?"
I mentally told myself, "Be gentle with your feelings. I understand how you feel. Nurture yourself and eventually you will love loving." Phooey!
"STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF!" I yelled inside my head. "Nurture" said the soft voice. "Cut the crap! STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF." Okay! I got it
Where do I wish to be fierce?
I wish to be fierce with the words, "STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF." Now, go take on the day!

4 comments:
Be strong. As you wish for yourself, so I also wish for you.
Love yourself fiercely! As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you!
I wish you to find that fierce strength!
As you wish for yourself, I wish for you too.
Cheers
{gentle hug}
As Cindy wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
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